#without hope without witness without reward I am your friend

[captain-jacks-coat]

The captain is cursed The roses will fall The doctor will leave him An old soldier calls

A saviour forgets The pond will turn dry Run, you clever boy, remember Rose Tyler, I

A raven has taken An impossible friend The river runs deep As the diary ends

A girl is turned to glass The mistress of evil was kind All 'cause a TARDIS was stolen And Gallifrey left behind

[batmanego]

let’s all think about 12 and missy today

[theangelshavethephonebox]

Reread "I wanna be the one to walk in the sun" by @poppiesforthirteen and it reminded me of something:

Missy was so confident she could escape from the vault any time she liked, not just because of her usual "I'm the master, I can do anything" superiority/God complex, but because she had an ace up her sleeve: the Doctor set the vault to "friends only" and she knew that whatever happened, she'd always be the Doctor's friend.

[lastonestanding1]

Stand with me its all I ever wanted.me too

[maliciouscrow]

Missy: I am your friend. I know it makes no difference. I know I’m going to die. I have to say it, the truth, without hope, without witness, without reward. I am your friend.

Saxon Master:

[marvelmaniac715]

The Master/Missy displaying the love languages towards the Doctor (I am begging you not to take this seriously, I took a lot of this out of context for hopefully comedic effect but rest assured I have watched all of Doctor Who from 2005-2024 and I fully plan to watch the classic series in the next few weeks):

Physical touch - Snogging the Doctor quite hard in ‘Dark Water’

Words of affirmation - The continuous use of the nickname ‘My dear Doctor’ in the classic series and the way Missy reiterated that she was the Doctor’s friend (“Without hope, without witness or reward, I am your friend” or something like that because I need to rewatch that episode)

Gifts - Giving Twelve a Cybermen army (or trying to at least) for his birthday in ‘Death in Heaven’

Quality time - The year they spent together on the Valiant in ‘The Last of the Time Lords’ and all the time that Missy was in the vault as well as their brief TARDIS travel

Acts of service - Hacking into the matrix to discover the Doctor’s origins as the Timeless Child and Missy fighting her past self to assist Twelve

[thealogie]

I'm not sure about Scott and Mescal yet tbh, they need to be tested by time and other projects. They're not out of trial period yet. I used to be sure only about the duo of Sirs (Ian and Pat), but since approximately last year I became sure of Tennant and Sheen as well. There truly was no need to keep the charade for so long, and for what? For GO. No Oscar bait, no Emmy bait, no nothing. Nah, these old men are tried and true acting besties and at the very least close rl friends. (I still don't believe you can arrive at 50 without rl besties whom you know for decades, so I'm pretty sure they each have other rl besties. And I'm ok with that. Seems for fans it's all or nothing, they just HAVE to be closest best bosom buddies, or even most passionate of lovers, or it's all fake. I happen to think them becoming close friends and acting partners on the back of one good casting decision in their late 40s is enough of a fairytale).

You’re very right, Andrew Scott and Paul Mescal are still in the trial period. I get a genuine vibe from them and I don’t think they had to go clubbing together on Andrew’s birthday so I do think they’re friends but we don’t know if they’ll keep hanging out and manufacturing situations to work together.

David and Michael on the other hand are like: Without hope (Emmys). Without witness (baftas). Without reward (golden globes). I am your friend.

[ghoulsbrain]

«Without hope, without witness, without reward. I am your friend.»

[ihopetheresdragons]

without hope without witness without reward i am your friend. etc etc. what the fuck was that about. she was crazy for that.

[variousqueerthings]

I know I'm going to die. I have to say it, the truth. Without hope. Without witness. Without reward. I am your friend.

I'm sick, so I can just sit around and talk about Doctor Who. today, "Extremis," aka the gameification of alien invasions feat. M*ffat using the Vatican church as an excuse to write dialogue that he thinks sounds clever (fun facts for everyone who wants to morosely shake their heads, M*ffat is writing a show about cancellation and has plans to make a British West Wing...)

sexism rank objectification (female character is ogled/harassed/turned into a sex joke by the doctor and/or a lead we’re supposed to root for and/or the camera): 7/10

sexism rank plot-point (lead female character is only there to serve plot, not to have her emotional interiority explored, or given agency to her emotional interiority): 4/10

interesting complex or pointlessly complex (does the complexity serve the narrative or does it just serve to be confusing as a stand-in for smart, this includes visually): 4/10

furthers character and/or lore and/or plot development (broader question that ties into the previous ones, at least two of these, ideally three should be fulfilled): 7/10

companion matters (the companion doesn’t always have to be there, but if the companion is there, can they function without the doctor– and overall per season how often is the companion the focus or POV of the story): 3/10

the doctor is more than just “godlike” (examines the doctor’s flaws and limitations, doesn’t solve a plot by having it revolve entirely around the doctor’s existence): 6/10

doesn’t look down on previous doctor who (by erasing or mocking its importance, by redoing and “bettering” previous beloved plotpoints or characters, etc.): 6/10

isn’t trying to insert hamfisted sexiness (m*ffat famously talked a lot about how dw should be sexier multiple times, he sucks at writing it): 7/10

internal world has consistency (characters have backgrounds, feel rooted in a place with other people, generally feel like they have Lives): 5/10

Politics (how conservative is the story): 6/10

FULL RATING: 55/100 (if I can count….)

We're back into more of a standard M*ffat era rating with this one. makes sense, seeing as this was written by M*ffat

OBJECTIFICATION: I rate this one down purely for Nardole calling Bill "babydoll" -- yes, yes it's a joke, but I don't like Nardole's character, I don't think the joke works, and I think it's patronising rather than charming/silly/whatever they were going for:

BILL: Nardole, are you secretly a badass? NARDOLE: Nothing secret about it, baby doll. (Then he stops suddenly and whimpers)

there's also the way M*ffat writes lesbians... unsure whether to put this here or under hamfisted sexiness, so I put it under both. I don't think this is the worst in the way M*ffat has written women on this show, and in many ways I still think Bill is far more well-written than, say, the relationship between Jenny and Vastra, and I think that may in large part be due to Pearl Mackie not playing it as sultry in the way I know is so common in M*ffat era. the script runs like this:

BILL: Are you okay? PENNY: Yeah. Sorry, I'm just not quite used to all of this. BILL: Well, whatever this is, and actually it's not anything yet, it is absolutely nothing to feel guilty about. Okay? PENNY: Okay.

this is, to be clear, pretty much the extent of the date that Bill and Penny are on that we see, this is the main gist of conversation they get to have, alone at Bill's apartment. whether they were out before that, or whatever else they've talked about in the past is unknown (and then they get interrupted by the main plot starting)

it's got the air of forbidden lesbian pulp leading into a steamy sex scene, and it's a shame it just hovers in the middle of nothing like this (what do they have in common, how was the rest of their date, have they spoken about this before, etc), so yeah, I am rating it down, but not too far down, because I think Pearl Mackie and the other actress manage to deliver the lines without them sounding completely stupid. still, M*ffat, you've managed to write lesbians who don't talk like a porn-intro simulator. they could have been chatting about literally anything that gave us an insight into why Bill likes this girl!

PLOT-POINT: Bill is revealed to be a simulacra in this one -- not like when Amy was revealed to be flesh, and her apparent involvement in the first half of s6 completely irrelevant, it's just this one episode

still, it means Bill's actions in this episode are somewhat pointless.

Simulacra!Bill on the other hand, goes through all the stages of horror upon finding out she isn't Bill. I think it would have been cool if this had been more the core of the episode, and not only at the end, after all a lot of Doctor Who is "who is a person (everyone)," but this Bill is in the end not there to explore that, she's mainly there to reveal the plottwist

COMPLEXITY: IIIII wasn't a fan of the execution of this episode. I kind of like the idea (aliens simulate invasion plans and people within them at some point come to the realisation that they're not real and it drives them crazy), but the execution is so overblown and ridiculous, I don't take any of it seriously, and frankly several times wondered if I'd missed something as I was going through it

I think M*ffat does this a lot while I'm watching, and while it isn't technically his fault that I feel stupid watching his plots, it does make me resent him whenever it happens -- I'll watch a plot, lose the thread for a bit, go "wait, am I understanding this right?" look it up, discover I am understanding it right, and M*ffat just put in several pointless set-pieces that got me distracted, and it's not that complicated

there's just no need for it to function in the way it does. I also think it's such a missed opportunity to really lean into a Matrix-like world -- not to say Matrix itself, but the ways the Matrix makes the audience notice the oddness/inconsistencies of "reality," puts you on the scent, vs this episode which is designed to make you confused, but not because you think anything's amiss, M*ffat just confuses people constantly without reason

there's this bit as well were a bunch of CERN scientists blow themselves up, and I think it's a shame that this didn't take place purely at CERN in a way that introduced it properly to a younger audience -- I think you'd be forgiven for coming out of this episode knowing exactly as much or little about CERN as you did coming in, except now you associate it with crazy German guy blowing up a cafeteria full of people all spouting the same numbers (because they're simulatioooons, which we don't know yet)

all the Vatican stuff is sooo... ok I'm biased on that. I find the Vatican intensely boring as concept, and I think it's because everytime I see something about the Vatican (barring idk. the young pope or the exorcist) is always about making it this mystical fascinating place, more or less completely devoid of anything that delves into its humanity, never mind its horrible no good chokehold on millions of people and historical cover up of a whole buncha crimes. I get the latter, this is Doctor Who, but what was the purpose of the Vatican, other than to be like oooh cool mysterious Italians. Dull dull dull

OH AND THE FUCKING!!! COMPUTER CHARACTERS FEEL WHEN YOU SHOOT THEM THING!!!! STUPID! WAIT I'M GONNA PUT THAT ONTO POLITICS JUST YOU WAIT M*FFAT! I'M NOT LETTING THIS ONE GO!

the ending is neat, I like the ending. everything getting there is soooo peak M*ffat, minus a woman being sexually assaulted or harassed

oh and there's a simultaneous little narrative of the Master being sentenced to execution and the Doctor has to be the executioner. I always like the Doctor and the Master interacting, of course, and technically this could be cool. To be honest, I think there could have been a great whole episode about this concept, but unfortunately this is not going to happen, and this is one of those excuses to make the Doctor seem soooo cooooool. I'm actually not sure why it's there other than to reveal that the Master is in the vault

thematically I don't think the two plots have much to do with one another, but then I watched it about 2 weeks ago so maybe I've forgotten something important

CHARACTERS/LORE/PLOT: at the end of this, the Doctor doesn't kill the Master, and there's an invasion coming, the Doctor is still blind, and Bill decides to shoot her shot with an attractive woman that the Doctor saw her simulacra self go on a date with

I like once again how the Doctor takes an interest in Bill's life, and in this case urges her to give it a go, and I'm always a fan of seeing the Master, but it's of course the invasion that will be followed up on in the next two episodes, and again, I like the idea of aliens running invasion simulations

just noticed nothing that happens in this episode is actually the way the invasion goes... that's next episode's business though

COMPANIONS MATTER: in this one, they do not really. it's interesting because simulacra!Bill and simulacra!Nardole actually spend a significant amount of the episode away from the Doctor, doing their part of plot, but there's nothing really that they discover that the Doctor doesn't also figure out, so.....

“GODLIKE” DOCTOR: the rating in this part is, I confess, almost purely because of the whole execution bit. because at the end of that we have another M*ffat classic. the Doctor essentially says "hey, I can do what I want" the alien says "lol no" and the Doctor counters "I'm the Doctor actually and I've killed sooo many people" and the alien is cowed and awed into letting the Doctor do whatever they want

actually I wonder now, in the grand scheme of the universe in Doctor Who, has the Doctor killed more people than others? not discounting that there aren't a lot of fatalities, but even including the ones the Doctor elected just... not to save... even including the Time War (which we've partially undone so the count is back down again), you telling me there aren't whole galaxies destroyed in other wars or ruled by tyrants or idk. buncha weird species out there who enjoy doin a violence

like yeah, he's killed a lot of people, but surely these "we specialise in execution" guys have seen worse, considering they must execute the worst of the worst (or whatever, they're not well-developed). perhaps I'm being pedantic, but eh

remembers that M*ffat did this aaalll the way back in silence of the libary and then never stopped doing this. it's one of his get out of jail freecards that I hate the most

PREVIOUS DOCTOR WHO: there aren't really any callbacks or tie-ins. the closest would be that fuckn killcount machine moment

“SEXINESS”: I rated this down for the lesbians writing, because despite how it was played, that script was dumb as hell

INTERNAL WORLD: see, technically M*ffat could get away with not being a particularly good world-builder in this one, because it's not real, but I'm not letting go of him casually tossing in the Vatican and CERN just cos in the way he did, and the space executioners are just there to give flavour

you'd think this would have been a dream come true for M*ffat, he could have done anything, and instead it was indistinguishable from his usual world-building

POLITICS: okok, let's talk about simulacra and computer games. this episode is actually completely devoid of politics, something I pointed out was kind of odd considering they're giving us the Vatican and CERN (not to mention the beginnings of an invasion plot), but then the Doctor has to throw out there just for flavour that apparently computer game characters feel it when you shoot them

I think that's the thing with M*ffat and politics. either they don't exist where they probably should, or they're just for flavour. but let us consider this concept for a bit, from the perspective of the simulacra -- the Doctor has acknowledged, on some level, that they are alive. alive enough to feel pain, to go crazy upon discovering they're not the people they think they are, to (in simulacra!Bill's case) plead to be saved

is he saying then, that every character in a computer game is alive? or has the potential to come alive (when sophisticated enough). what does this mean for the rights of computer games in the world that they inhabit? and within that idea, what does it all thematically, metaphorically mean for real life rights, because scifi politics is really always about real life politics

I mean, we're never going to explore that in this era, because it wasn't about that. I think there's a wider question that Doctor Who has to ask in its "everyone is people" conceit, because as we all know not everyone is really people in Doctor Who. it's one of my favourite parts of Doctor Who, but it's enforced loosely, which is a shame

I'd be curious about a "everyone is people" ranking (possibly starting with nu!who, I'm too early in my classic watch for my brain to do much more than simply go brrrrrrr), and when this matters and when it doesn't -- there's a biiit of leeway, because sometimes villains are people, and sometimes they're not, but also sometimes the Doctor's in too much of a hurry to explore the personhood of a villain, so... it's not a hard and fast ranking, I'd just be curious

anyway, this episode fails the "everyone is people" criteria sooo badly

FULL RATING: 55/100 (if I can count….)

this one has many of the M*ffat hallmarks: overblown plot with a ton of stupid dialogue that's meant to sound deep (the flipping way they use the word extremis in the plot itself is soooooo *rolls eyes forever*), a lack of thematic relevance overall, and an inability to give the companions something important to do or mean in the plot

it's not the worst of M*ffat plots, but it's kind of a disappointment for having a pretty cool core idea that feels like it needed way more drafts to cut out the dead weight and shift some of the flightier notions into something workable

it does however set up the next two plots, which I've cautiously decided to do together, even though they're quite tonally different. we'll see how that goes. and gomez!master is great as always

[aeoki]

Sandstorm - Epilogue 4

Location: Chuugoku Region Qualifiers Stage Characters: Hinata & Kaoru

Kaoru: But, Hinata-kun, you were quick-witted and stopped Yuuta-kun just as he was about to cross onto a dangerous bridge.

You did that by sneakily placing the “Desert Coin” into my pocket.

In reality, Yuuta-kun didn’t order you to do that, right?

He only told you to steal the “Desert Coin” in my pocket, didn’t he?

But despite that, you wanted to save us on the brink of being destroyed and also didn’t want to betray Yuuta-kun. So you decided on your own to place a “Desert Coin” in my pocket.

Hinata: What makes you think that?

Kaoru: Just my hunch. We ended up spending around two weeks together due to the course of events, after all. I think I’ve learnt what kind of person you are after all that time.

It might have been an unconscious habit, but you’re always trying to convey what you’re thinking and doing to the people around you. That’s why I think anyone would have noticed, even if it wasn’t me.

You were lost, scared and anxious. You’re always saying ridiculous things with a smile on your face, but you seemed like you were asking for help.

You were afraid that Yuuta-kun was changing, right?

He’s supposed to be an important family member who’s on the same page as you, but you started being unable to understand him…

Hinata: You sure act like you know everything, senpai~

Kaoru: I just thought maybe that’s how my family must have felt.

I was a serious model student, but then I stopped listening to the things they said. On top of that, I even started saying I wanted to be an idol.

Maybe they thought I was similar to a monster that they couldn’t understand.

It’s scary not being able to understand, isn’t it? I still think so now and I regret not making the effort to talk to them earlier.

But it’s also scary not being understood, right? It scares you to be feared and you can’t help but put distance between the both of you.

But the more you distance yourself from them, the more confusing it all becomes.

I hope you can grab hold of Yuuta-kun without giving up. Just like how my family did for me.

I was saved thanks to them. Right now, I can live every day pretty happily.

Of course, it wasn’t all thanks to my family. It was also the help of my friends and the numerous people who watch me and love who I am.

I realised that, in the end, the people you can rely on the most are your family.

Sure, there are a lot of bad parents out there in the world, so this is just the flowery opinion of someone who’s blessed in that aspect, though.

But even so, you two are precious to me, so I’d like to do everything I can do to make you two smile.

Hinata: You sure are nice, Hakaze-senpai~ We even betrayed you and almost destroyed you guys.

Kaoru: Being able to forgive no matter what cruel things were done to you is still love, isn’t it? You know what? It might sound like I’m joking, but I really love everyone around me right now.

I want to tell the people I love that I love them as much as I can before I lose that chance. That’s the reason why I’m an idol right now.

Hinata: Hmm. If that’s what you’re saying, then you should just hurry up and confess to Anzu-san~

Kaoru: T-That’s a different story!

Hinata: Well, love and romantic love is different, huh~

Kaoru: It’s not romantic love either, okay!?

Hinata: Then, what kind of… You know what, nevermind.

Understood. It’s an idol’s job to grant someone’s wish and I’ll work hard to reach the future you want me to reach, Hakaze-senpai.

Kaoru: Right. Good boy, now that’s a perfect answer ♪

Let me give a reward to Hinata-kun who’s been a good boy.

Hinata: ? What’s this? A “Desert Coin”?

This is basically useless, right? It’s not much for a present.

Kaoru: Rather than a gift, it’s more like I’m returning it to you. I hope this makes it even between us since I’ve borrowed it from you.

And we’ve now established a relationship of equal standing so we’re even. I look forward to working with you again.

There are a lot of weird people around us and we’re both suffering, but will you join me in working hard to love and be happy with those odd people?

Just like how we worked together to overcome the desert?

Hinata: Hmm… In the end, humans die though.

But you’d want to spend the time leading up to that in happiness with a smile on your face, huh.

My feelings… my wish is the same. That’s why I’ll do my best to make that happen – just like you, senpai.

I’ll overcome any storm that comes my way to reach a happy future.

“♪~♪~♪”

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[astraldreams-ids]

id: various excerpts from doctor who scripts. all speaker names are in all caps, and there are occasional director's notes. transcript:

1) captain jack: So who is he, Doctor? How come the ancient society of Time Lords created a psychopath? martha: And what is he, to you? Like a colleague, or..? the doctor: Friends, at first.

2) the doctor: I had a friend once. When I was little. We ran together and I thought we were the same. But when we grew up, we weren't. Now she wants to tear the world apart, and I can't run fast enough to hold it together. The difference - [director's note:] (Taps the chest aperture) - is this. Pain is a gift. Without the capacity for pain, we can't feel the hurt we inflict.

3) the doctor: Why would you do this? missy: I need you to know, we're not so different. I need my friend back.

4) bill: Why do you want to do this?? the doctor: She's my friend. She's my oldest friend in the universe.

5) missy: Don't be disgusting - we're Time Lords, not animals! Try, nano-brain, to rise above the reproductive frenzy of your noisy little food chain, and contemplate friendship (in italics). A friendhsip older than your civilisation and infinitely more complex.

6) continued: missy (cont'd): Without hope, without witness, without reward - I am your friend. [director's note:] She closes her eyes. Has made her peace with the world.

7) (Beat) The Master was one of my oldest friends. We went very different ways.

8) the master [director's note:] (beat; so sad): I don't think anything will ever do that. [director's note:] And she looks at him. The ache of centuries past, when they were other people. Childhood friends.

9) the doctor (cont'd) [director's note:] (re the Master): We used to be friends. Him and me.

They’re friends

[fknhues]

end note: 2023

i'm like 21 days late for this closure for 2023. but its taking me awhile to accept 2023 as a whole.

on the bright side, i've managed to settle myself fully and be contented with the life path i've chose towards the end of 2023 and i'm glad i still have the same people i trust and love since the start of 2023. to me, that is the most rewarding part.

somewhere in the almost middle of 2023, i went through a break up with someone whom i saw a future with. but little did i know that that person would go. leaving me in a spiral for three months. though, i did managed to move on during those 3 months while making the wrong choices too. its a habit for me to stay after breaking up as i did foresee a future with him and i thought there was hope. until that one day i drew such a hatred and my body rejected him - which was its way to tell me that its time for me to leave. took awhile for my mind be okay with that. to whoever you are, i hope you're happier without me and i'm sure you can be. i hope you and your family are healthy. i do miss your mother at times and yes, i'll fulfill the promise i've made with her when the time comes. this relationship that was built is still the most bitter to me. anyways, stream typa girl by blackpink.

work wise, i've managed to learn to love my work again with my new role. my team is so lovely even though i'm the only sgrean and the rest are in kl. but the dynamic the 4 of us have is just impeccable. though, i still do have the intention on leaving the company even when i love my team and my job. the company, she ain't it. too many unpredictable changes and sometimes too forceful for results.

family wise, i lost two of my elders on my maternal side in july and in october. i miss them dearly especially my grandfather, whom has protected me and shower me countless loves. hope he's happy up there. his passing was definitely one of my biggest points in 2023. i never thought i would lose him but god loves him more than anyone will ever. everytime i speak about him, i get choked out because there was a period whereby i had to be strong and i didn't process it yet, truly indenial of it. oh on the bright side, my dearest uncle is back. the only sad part about him being back is i am not sure if he knows my grandfather has passed on or not. but i am proud that he is back to civilization now.

friendship wise, i am glad that i managed to hang out with my friends lots in 2023, especially towards the end when i've managed to find balance and be happy again. yes, when i'm upset, i tend to disappear as i don't want anyone to worry about me nor see me in the state of agony. thankful to my two brothers who always entertain my cravings of acai and much impromptu meets by randomly going to changi airport or even vivo for no apparent reasons. thankful to vg always and forever for being my girls till today and being there for me when things get super hard. so blessed to have witness one of the heartfelt weddings ever - i couldn't control my tears, she has certainly went through alot and i am so happy that she's happy and love the life she is in right now.

you thought i was done? nah. guess what? i am blessed to have met someone yet again. when i say again, yes, he was my 2020 valentines date and my only ns girlfriend era i had. we met again in 2023 and we clicked really well. he did something unexpected as others would ask the person they like to be their girlfriend but no. he took out the 'do you want get a bto with me?'. surprise! yeah, we're on that now. wish us luck! still learning about one another because its been 3 years since we last met but boy, i am happy. he treats me kindly and even holds me softly. he reminds me of my 21 self who was still in school - just freedom with a little sprinkle of school stress. so blessed to be working at serangoon so i’m lowkey near him and sometimes i get free rides home hehe. thank you to my man for entertaining my jb staycays. may we go cruises this year. oh & we’re celebrating 2024 valentines together again! anyways, insyaallah we'll get the bto.

also, i've reconciled with the people i fell off friendships with in 2021 and i'm so happy i get to see them again and talk to them again. their humour are apparently all still the same. sending each other failed covers and stupid satire jokes. it makes me feel somewhat wholesome that i'm friends again with the people who were there for me when i was myself completely.

i am contented that i am myself, i am happy and i do not need to lead nor be strong for anyone anymore. i do not associate with the me in may 2023 to august 2023 (sadly my birthday month too) as i genuinely don’t know her. she’s a broken girl who leaned on people who were never meant to stay in her life and for that, i don’t know her. but all i know is, i’ll fight for the people who will fight for me. i’ll support you as much as i can. however, once you give up on me, i’ll only give you A Chance to redeem yourself or else, goodbye.

to my daddy, what the heck man. i haven’t seen you in two years and when my grandfather passed, he came. now he sees my family members more than me?! literally met my uncle before i meet him? chile. but yeah, my situation with daddy hasn’t change. it might when i want to get married but just for the camera, daddy!

lastly, my mom and i rarely fight, which is literally my biggest goal in 2023. so three cheers for me! thank you to my mom for being my biggest life supporter, life advisor, pillow to cry on. to more trips for you, mama!

if you read this until here, thank you for existing and thank you for being there for me.

i love you.

love, nini.

[lindajenni]

oct 21

on the wait list for glory

"now therefore, stand and see this great thing which the Lord will do before your eyes: is today not the wheat harvest?" 1 sam 12:16

friends, i think we are all just spectators at this point. we have watched the times and anticipated the seasons. we have prayed our prayers and yes, they will continue. we have pointed to likely times and hopefully spurred others to close in on their relationship with the Lord. we have beautified the glory of the Lord in hopes that others would be drawn to Him, either by fear of judgement or love of rewards. as the aspostle paul said, "i have become all things to all men, that i might by all means save some." 1 cor 9:22

it's not just seeing the travail of jerusalem that grabs our attention, but the turmoil of the earth and the urgency in our spirits alerts us too. the time of jacob's trouble is nearing. certainly we fight and strive for the stragglers that continue to linger, but if Christ has alerted any to His plans i wasn't privy to them.

and so, now i watch each day for our Lord; ever expectant. i pray for eyes to be opened and hearts to be chastened. and yes, i pray for the wholly oblivious to learn the fear of the Lord for "it is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God." heb 10:31 "the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding." prov 9:10

my heart is fearful and peaceful at the same time. wasn't it thoreau who talked about "quiet desperation?" i would think it impossible to have both feelings at once, but i do. i fear for what soon is coming upon those without the Lord while i entertain the peace of God in my own heart. the suffering and destruction we are now witnessing is just a foretaste of that to come. there will soon be no peace anywhere other than His presence and our presence will be with Him. the tribulation saints will have much to endure.

we watch for the next shoe to drop; for the next sign of the man-child birthing to appear. and who has heard of such a thing? he gave us all the signs to watch for and now we are drowning in them; more than i ever thought the church would have to witness. only the willingly blind could fail to notice. "for the hearts of this people have grown dull. their ears are hard of hearing, and their eyes they have closed, lest they should see with their eyes and hear with their ears, lest they should understand with their hearts and turn, so that I should heal them." matt 13:15

the wheat is ripe for harvest and the bride's heart longs for her groom to return. "whom have i in heaven but You? and there is none upon earth that i desire besides You." psa 73:25 the time nears for our nuptials; the completion of what He promised us. "I go to prepare a place for you. and if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself; that where I am, there you may be also." john 14:2-3

just think, soon we will be awaking in His loving arms. our dark night of separation will have ended. we have loved the light more than the darkness and we have ever crawled closer to that light. i think of the line i love from a poem - "and worms have learned to lisp Thy name."

we have learned of His greatness, His goodness and His glory. we have been awestruck by the grace that lifts up our heads to behold Him - face to face. "and he shall bring forth the capstone with shouts of 'grace, grace to it!'" zech 4:7

yes, we are spectators indeed - and more, wonderers. "do not be afraid. stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord, which He will accomplish for you today. for the egyptians whom you see today, you shall see again no more forever." exo 14:13

soon we shall see this world no longer. at least not a world dominated by sin as it now is. our stay in paradise may be brief as we await our return under our Lord's sovereign rule. then, after a brief final rebellion, it will be on to eternity and the things God has prepared for those who love Him.

watch the happenings with wonder. "many prophets and righteous men desired to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it." matt 13:17 soon you will see them no more.

[synthetictorii]

⟡ Prompt list ⟡

To request a prompt fic, just send me the genre, number of the prompt & character who you’d like me to write for. It’s okay to combine more of them too! ♡

🌠 AUs (please specify if you want it to be fluffy/angsty/whatever!) 

Coffee shop

Flower shop

Guardian angel

Hanahaki disease

Horror

Hybrid

Mafia

Soulmate

Supernatural/Monster

Yandere

🌺 Fluff

Accidental touches

Being held after a long day

Coffee 

Comfortable silence

Finishing each other’s sentences 

Flower language 

Hanging out with their friends

Matching outfits 

Notes randomly found

Pillow fort

Protecting them from teasing

Rainy day

Reassurances

Sharing a bed for the first time

Sharing a hobby

Sharing secrets

Shopping together

Stargazing

Thinking about them when they’re away

Touch starved

Trying a new thing together

Whispers 

Witnessing them being whipped on accident

“Can I touch you?”

“Can we talk? What are we? What are we doing?”

“Come closer.”

“Don’t go. Not yet.”

“Forever is a long time, are you sure you can handle it?”

“I can’t sleep, can I stay with you?”

“I hoped I’d meet someone like you for a long time.”

“I like the way things are now.”

“It’s okay, I’m here.”

“No, let me do it.”

“This reminded me of you.”

“Why can’t we stay here forever?”

“You don’t count - I love you.”

“You make me feel alive.”

“Your heart is beating so fast right now.”

🍂 Angst

A ring left behind 

An empty side of the bed

Being given one last chance

Dying 

Fears

Flinching away from touch 

Hearing them cry in the other room 

Insecurities

Jealousy

Nightmares

Reaching out without reaction 

Rescue (- but is it really?)

Scaring them

Separation

Tears

The silence after an argument

Threats (- or promises?)

Understanding too late

Unfixable

Waiting, unsure whether they’ll come back 

Words left unsaid

Words said too late

Yearning 

“Can I hug you for the last time?”

“Come back to me if he hurts you.”

“I feel safe with you.”

“I hate this just as much as you, but we have to see this through.”

“I hope you’ll never erase me from your memories.”

“I knew you’d feel guilty.”

“It’s okay, I understand.”

“Just take me home.”

“Maybe it’d be best to just let go.”

“Thank you for being part of my life.”

“Thank you for trying.”

“Why should I trust you again?”

“You owe me much more than that.”

“You’re finally turning your back, but what about me?”

“You always knew this would happen, didn’t you?”

🔥 Smut

Body language 

Bulging

Caught masturbating 

Cumming into their pants 

First to cum loses

Dacryphilia

Distracting

Dom and sub switching positions

Enemies

Exhibitionism 

Giggly 

Hands 

Mirrors

Not allowed to touch

Pushing boundaries 

Rings

Ropes

Rough and desperate

Sensory deprivation 

Sexting

Slow and sensual

Sub and two polar opposites doms

Toys

Voyeurism

Wearing the other’s clothes 

“Do you need help with that?”

“Do you want him/her to touch you?”

“Do you want to feel how hard/wet I am for you?”

“Get over here and make me.”

“I like being close to you. You’re so warm.”

“I’ll let you do anything if you just touch me now.”

“I said you’d get a reward, I didn’t say it would be letting you cum.”

“Keep that up and I won’t last.”

“No, I’m supposed to be making you feel good.”

“Show me how much you missed me.”

“You make a sound and it’s game over.”

“You’re not wearing anything under that, are you?”

“You’re the biggest turn on.”

🔖 Quotes & lyric lines (stuff based on these will reflect the vibe rather than using the quote itself)

I’m not used to being loved. I wouldn’t know what to do.

His gaze touched me before his hands touched me.

You have always wanted to caress every monster.

I want to swallow you, have you melt into me and flow through my veins.

Look at us, alive and amongst the stars.

If only I could turn back time, would I have drawn out a future with you?

I confuse instinct for desire - isn’t bite also touch?

How could I have learned the road if I never looked at anything but you.

Now is the time to devour through the longing.

To love someone is firstly to confess: I’m prepared to be devastated by you.

When I first met you, that’s what I remember. I looked up at the sky and thought, I’m going to love this person because even the sky looks different.

I knew that you yelled “thank you” from the bottom of your heart until the end.

Don’t try to trap us in the word “love” because it’s a greed can’t be filled.

I was born and I met you and I have loved you to death.

I was never really insane except upon occasions when my heart was touched.

I need to go find you / If I cry now, I might not be able to see you.

Our souls are so in love, but our humans keep getting the way.

But I would never kiss anyone who doesn’t burn me like the sun.

I wanted to hurt you, but the victory was that I couldn’t stomach it.

You will never find tenderness in the Devil’s eyes. What could he possibly look fondly at?

If I get to see you, I shall blossom in this barren earth.

Who wouldn’t want you? Whose most demonic appetite could you possibly fail to answer?

To jump knowing you will be caught is a type of mercy I have never known, yet always craved.

Because we’re young, we’ll regret tomorrow.

When I meet you after time passes / I’ll know (You protected me) / I’ll know (I desired you)